Life is moving again
In fact, life is moving a little too fast.
In one week I traded 2 cars for one newer one and purchased a second home. wosh!! I felt the rushing winds...
Only time will tell if I have made a mistake. I have made many, the trick is to recover from them. Not let them drown you.
So many things I loved and treasured for years, hold little meaning to me now. I have sewn all my life and yet lately I can't seem to get started. depression the doc says. lazy my Mother would say. and of course my sister would chime in and agree with Mom
Pull yourself up by your bootstraps they say.
Well easier said than done.
I am just flooded with emotions. emotions are attached to every decision. For every way I choose there are 20 others way that could have been chosen.
Why is it my lot in life to love to find words to attach meaning to the dull drool of my life.
Words that reach deep inside me and stir thought long ago put to sleep. Oh Heaven save me from my old English teacher ,she would have a holiday with that last sentence.
Words are wonderful words are comfort words cause pain. Words break hearts. words teach. words break people and things apart.
My life is just about as empty as before. I have managed to retain several girlfriends who have saved my sanity. from time to time.
Not so good in the romance department. never was my speciality.
No one wants a loyal full time lady, who carries mostly memories and a few skills. not to mention and few wrinkles and warts.
So with my time and talent I will tackle a refurbishing of an older home. I will bring back its glory and shine.
It will become a work of art. It will be everything I love and nothing more. Well maybe a few appliances and fixtures that I don't truly love, but will work for the present time.
I hope the last family in the house was happy. . It is a sad time many are losing their homes . Lots of reasons , but to the family it happens too it doesn't really matter the hows or whys. just have to endure the pain and move forward.
I am looking forward to a new view out the window, and new neighbors and new thoughts in my new home.
This present home is the nicest i have ever had , but the memories are waist deep. I want a house where I don't go looking for my precious hubby. Don't listen for his van.
I want another chance at life.
I want 10 more good years.
I want to fill them with laughter and song , smiles and hugs, plants and animals. really wouldn't mind if some hairy, 2 legged guy decided to join me, but I had better be ready either way.
As i have been told many times,
there are worse things than being alone.
gotta run later, The house awaits.
In one week I traded 2 cars for one newer one and purchased a second home. wosh!! I felt the rushing winds...
Only time will tell if I have made a mistake. I have made many, the trick is to recover from them. Not let them drown you.
So many things I loved and treasured for years, hold little meaning to me now. I have sewn all my life and yet lately I can't seem to get started. depression the doc says. lazy my Mother would say. and of course my sister would chime in and agree with Mom
Pull yourself up by your bootstraps they say.
Well easier said than done.
I am just flooded with emotions. emotions are attached to every decision. For every way I choose there are 20 others way that could have been chosen.
Why is it my lot in life to love to find words to attach meaning to the dull drool of my life.
Words that reach deep inside me and stir thought long ago put to sleep. Oh Heaven save me from my old English teacher ,she would have a holiday with that last sentence.
Words are wonderful words are comfort words cause pain. Words break hearts. words teach. words break people and things apart.
My life is just about as empty as before. I have managed to retain several girlfriends who have saved my sanity. from time to time.
Not so good in the romance department. never was my speciality.
No one wants a loyal full time lady, who carries mostly memories and a few skills. not to mention and few wrinkles and warts.
So with my time and talent I will tackle a refurbishing of an older home. I will bring back its glory and shine.
It will become a work of art. It will be everything I love and nothing more. Well maybe a few appliances and fixtures that I don't truly love, but will work for the present time.
I hope the last family in the house was happy. . It is a sad time many are losing their homes . Lots of reasons , but to the family it happens too it doesn't really matter the hows or whys. just have to endure the pain and move forward.
I am looking forward to a new view out the window, and new neighbors and new thoughts in my new home.
This present home is the nicest i have ever had , but the memories are waist deep. I want a house where I don't go looking for my precious hubby. Don't listen for his van.
I want another chance at life.
I want 10 more good years.
I want to fill them with laughter and song , smiles and hugs, plants and animals. really wouldn't mind if some hairy, 2 legged guy decided to join me, but I had better be ready either way.
As i have been told many times,
there are worse things than being alone.
gotta run later, The house awaits.
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1:59 PM
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